Song

Well one night Emmy and I cam e up with a song. It's not that bad. It would be better if she wrote it though. I did the lyrics and she is doing the music. here are the lyrics so far:

i see the way you look at her

and it shouldn't be a surprise

i know she;s the one you prefer

still some part of me dies

so since she doesn't want

to be more than just friends

could you ever see how

i wish this could end

when i see you i smile and i don't know why

what happens in you mind when i pass by?

but when you see her

i know what you think

and i'm positively sure

you're so in love with her

what's behind your eyes

what's within your heart

all i get are lies

and it's tearing me apart

don't tell how you really feel 

because i already know

i guess some wounds never heal

but i can't seem to let you go

i know now how it stings

an honorary guy

you told me everything

and you wondered why i cry

even though it's her you love

somehow i know you care

but when i look at her

i know i can't compare

how long

do i have to live with this

how long

will my feelings miss

how long can you not know

i'm falling into deeper sorrow

what's behind your eyes

what's within your heart

all i get are lies

and it's tearing me apart

don't tell me how you feel

because i already know

i guess some wounds never heal

but i can't seem to let you go

for all the things i've said to you

for all the time i've spent on you

you don't know

you don't care

so what am i supposed to do

did you ever know 

how much you meant to me

and did you ever know

why i always cared?

i'm trying to get the truth out of someone

who has already given all they have

what's behind you eyes

what's with your heart

all i get are lies

and it's tearing me apart

don't tell me how you really feel

because i already know

i guess some wounds never heal

but i can't seem to let you go 

will you ever know...

...tada

and even when your hope is gone move along move along just to make it through...

For some reason there is so much drama. And theoretically there should be about 3 people involved but there seems to be more. Everyone is just so depressed and i feel like i can't do anything. I should be able to help but i don't know how. The situation seems complicated but is it so complicated that it takes over their lives and makes everyone so depressed? If so, then i should really try to help but i really don't know how. I guess my only advice would be to not dwell on it. I mean, I know things are really stressful, but that shouldn't ruin friendship or make things tense. Then again, I don't know enough about the situation to judge, but it really helps if you focus on the good things of a situation. I mean, things could be a lot worse. The person you love could be in a different country or hate you and then you lose most of the friendship you had with them... but thats another situation. ... Back to the subject of drama.  Well someone said that when you look at things from on top of a tall building, everyone looks so tiny, and those tiny people all have problems. And we all get caught up in these problems and never see the big picture and they don't see the good things they still have.

i guess that quote could help. I kind of changed the quote a little bit. But i think this drama is being fed by depression and some jealousy. And maybe some bad friendship on the guys part. I know it's awkward to talk to someone that you just find out likes you but ignoring them is just being a bad and selfish friend. Again I don't know enough about the situation to judge so I'm really sorry if this makes things worse. If it does then I'm a terrible friend :( . So I guess what I'm trying to say is that you shouldn't push problems to the back of your head but don't let them over rule your life and make you miserable; because if you do then you don't see all of the wonderful friends you have and how great you're life is. And if everyone else is depressed then be happy, laugh and make them be happy and smile again. I know it may not be that simple but you have to try right? Because doing nothing doesn't help. Sometimes making everybody laugh again is the answer to your problems. If everybody wallowed then everyone would be caught in their world of depression and getting other people caught in it. Well i hope this didn't make things worse. One more thing. Listen to Move Along by The All AMerican Rejects. And watch Kodocha. :) It might help.

Valentines day poems

My first real post. yay!

Anyways, i guess i feel like writing poems, so i'll post some here.

roses are red

violets are blue

if you don't like this poem i'll sue

roses are red 

violets are blue

if only you knew

my feelings for you

roses are red 

violets are blue

as long as this is true

i will always love you (but aren't violets purple...)

roses are red

violets are blue

now that i'm gone 

will you miss me too?

roses are red

violets are blue

i wrote this poem

just for you

roses are red 

violets are blue

a card was too expensive

will a hug do?

haha  I think i should sell cards with poems. By the way, if you want to use one of these on a card feel free to. * cough * 99 cents each :) jk.

introduction

Hello...this is my wonderful fishtastic blog of "awesomeness". i'm sorry but it's not about fish. i know i'm disappointed too. it's about my life! yay! and other stuff! so yeah thats about it...