don't leave ...please

i remember that day

you saw me and smiled and did that over exaggerated wave we always used to do

and i was happy

just because of that



i remember the times

we talked all class, shared inside jokes,had the dumbest conversations, and laughed way too

loud

i used to look forward to that



i remember the days

when we messed with each other. you always flipped my hood over my head and someone

asked why and you said

"its kinda our thing"



i remember those moments

where we stared into each others eyes for no reason at all and you asked "so which eye do you look into, left or right?"

i never thought about it before



i remember the time

you talked to me everyday and somehow i knew you cared and everything was so carefree

and i was glad you were in my life



i remember what it was like

to lean on your shoulder; to be in your arms. you made me feel like everything would be ok.

i miss that



i remember what happened

when we walked by each other in the hall and didn't say anything. when i saw you and our eyes met, staring at each other, and we said nothing. when we stopped acknowledging each other...

what happened?



its not good bye

not yet

i just never knew how much i was afraid to lose you

fading... still fading...

you looked at me with soft eyes

just like you did before

but over time they grew colder.

i can't say i know you anymore



i feel the warmth of your hand

it's fading, further and further

was it ever there at all?

is this all we ever were?



like two strangers we walk

side by side though miles apart

trying to see past the wall we built

i can't see your heart



whats real and whats not?

blurring the lines

between reality and dreams

searching for something i don't know how to find



slowly we drift and fade away

whats happening? i don't know... i don't know...

further and further... no

i won't let you go...