Advocacy Project

For my advocacy project, I took out a recycling bin by the boys gym out to the curb and back each week throughout the year. The journey from the gym to the curb was harsh! I pulled and I pulled! With the weight of the bin carrying me down! Like lead it dragged but I had to continue. Then after the long tireless stretch to the street, there came… the curb! A full 5 inches of sheer steep cliff! How could I make it? Well I’ll tell you, it was laborious! Some days, when the bin was too full, I would not be able to make it up this steep incline. But somehow I made it to the curb each week. Then comes this projects most annoying issue. Finding a spot on the curb! Every week I hope for a nice easy spot in front but this does not happen often. It’s a battle to get the perfect spot! People rushing and tugging their bins, racing to get there in time. If one fails to do so, they have to… walk 20 feet further! You can see how this is a serious issue. All of this effort and the struggles I went thorough for the good of recycling! How I admire myself and the other recycle bin transporters out there! Because of us, many plastic bottles and aluminum cans (and food people thought was recyclable) have found their way to a recycle center so they can be degraded into disposable items and sent to a landfill in India! Such great work we have done! i got bored while doing my project so i wrote this. i don;t think i'll be turning it in... so now i have to go do the real one :/

don't leave ...please

i remember that day

you saw me and smiled and did that over exaggerated wave we always used to do

and i was happy

just because of that



i remember the times

we talked all class, shared inside jokes,had the dumbest conversations, and laughed way too

loud

i used to look forward to that



i remember the days

when we messed with each other. you always flipped my hood over my head and someone

asked why and you said

"its kinda our thing"



i remember those moments

where we stared into each others eyes for no reason at all and you asked "so which eye do you look into, left or right?"

i never thought about it before



i remember the time

you talked to me everyday and somehow i knew you cared and everything was so carefree

and i was glad you were in my life



i remember what it was like

to lean on your shoulder; to be in your arms. you made me feel like everything would be ok.

i miss that



i remember what happened

when we walked by each other in the hall and didn't say anything. when i saw you and our eyes met, staring at each other, and we said nothing. when we stopped acknowledging each other...

what happened?



its not good bye

not yet

i just never knew how much i was afraid to lose you

fading... still fading...

you looked at me with soft eyes

just like you did before

but over time they grew colder.

i can't say i know you anymore



i feel the warmth of your hand

it's fading, further and further

was it ever there at all?

is this all we ever were?



like two strangers we walk

side by side though miles apart

trying to see past the wall we built

i can't see your heart



whats real and whats not?

blurring the lines

between reality and dreams

searching for something i don't know how to find



slowly we drift and fade away

whats happening? i don't know... i don't know...

further and further... no

i won't let you go...

home sick :(

i got hit with another wave of homesickness... so i feel like saying all of the things i miss

I miss holmes and how i would never use my locker. i miss mr. thompsons class and how he would draw awful drawings on the board to attempt to teach the lesson. he drew a square on the board and it could have represented the usa germany or an ocean or anything really. I miss the way everyone would ask me for gum during nutrition and how every late start wednesday, i would buy two packs so i would have enough for everyone. I miss track and how it seemed like i could run forever. i miss going to the beach where my grandma lives. Even though i really didn;t like going before, i miss it now. I miss getting back to davis after a two hour car trip and looking up at the sky and being amazed my the number of stars. I miss not worrying about my schedule or my grades. I miss going to ellie's house every week and singing any random song we wanted to. I miss going to lamp post pizza and going to the tennis courts for an hour before ellie had to go to sailing. I miss going to habit burger with cindy and calling each other toothpick and potato. i miss using nicknames like square star and rectangle. I miss using sign language to communicate across the room. i miss the way shayne would yell out "i will turn you into a toaster!" during science. i even miss our physics project. i miss talking to my brother. i miss seeing squares smile. i even miss seeing star. I miss seeing the frost on the grass in the morning and being late for japanese class. I miss the way kayla would sometimes text at the wrong time so that when i came into the class, my ohone would beep. I miss going to nugget on late start wednesdays with anushriya and kayla. i miss talking about all the situations that would never happen with surah and anushriya and saying "darn foiled again :)" i miss the smell of flowers and tress in the air. i miss the deep clear blue sky. i miss seeing stars instead of airplanes. i miss sitting under the stars with anushriya while we tried to get through twinkle twinkle little star without being distracted. i miss going to cultive. i miss riding on the back of ellie's bike to her house. i miss cassie and her fatness and how she would make me sneeze cause i'm allergic to cats. i miss taking everyone's food and how sometimes they would bring extra just for me :) i miss talking to surah in ceramics. i miss the way i didn't worry so much. i miss the way i could talk to people. i miss davis...

i didn't really mention anything in la cause i still have it.

Note Story... Day One.

Note

I'm gonna make this more dramatic than it is for the fun of it :p. Also, this is before Sid and Monica were dating and before I liked "Twin". In fact "Twin" and I talked, but not very much, so at this time, he wasn't really a big part of my life.


It started as a normal day for the most part. Well, for me at least. I was still unaware of a situation that had started earlier that morning; A situation that would make us view someone very differently for a long time to come. (this is sounding good so far but just to let you know, I can't keep up this style of writing.) It was monday and I was sitting in math still thinking of the small events that had happened last week. Ms. Ransom was probably writing some math lesson on the board but my mind, as usual, was not really focusing on anything. After sitting about two hours in that class, the bell rang. I headed off to our spot at the tree, expecting to continue the events from last week. You see, last week "bacon"(sorry for nicknames but he was the person I liked before "twin". There's a long story for that too. I would say it here but it would distract from the real story.) and his group had decided to sit by our tree during battle of the bands. Something is very interesting about that group. Their aura is dark... and slightly intense. It feels like they are in their own world, which we are not allowed in. Monica and i had gone over to their spot when they weren't there. Their aura still lingered and as we got closer, it felt like it was pushing us away. When we were standing right in the middle of it, there was this slight "Haha we're here what are you gonna do about it :P." feeling, but we decided to leave anyways. While leaving, it almost felt like something was slightly pushing us. It was easy and comfortable to leave and it felt like we were moving faster away from it than we had been moving towards it... So when they were at our spot to watch the battle of the bands, I kept looking over at "bacon" who was for some reason, always being touched in someway whenever i happened to be looking. The first time I think they were feeling up his stomach. I forgot the next, but the last time i looked, he was getting his neck rubbed. The next day, we would pass each other in the hall, look right at each other, and not say a word. I decided to go down a different flight of stairs to avoid the awkwardness of walking next to him without talking. During lunch, this happened many more times. He would look right at me, walk towards me, then turn right before he got to me. This confused me quite a bit. He walked by a couple more times, doing very similar actions. He also sat down and talked to Monica and Alex, sitting behind Monica so that she was blocking his view from me. I don't think he was doing this intentionally, but it seemed like it. While heading to our spot, I was expecting to see if he would do any more things like this so I could find out if it were intentional or not, but when I got there, Monica had some pretty big news that would be the main focus of our week.

What Monica held in her hands, was an envelope. This morning, before school had started, Monica had been going to her locker with David. Just outside her locker, there was an envelope taped onto the balcony with her name on it. Now she was was showing me the contents. Upon opening the envelope, we took out three things. The first was a graduation card. Inside the card was 3 pieces of paper. One was a small piece with a kanji symbol that had obviously been traced.
I don't quite remember b I think it was the symbol for 'think'. The next paper was a poem that went as follows.

"this monkey is a fool, just like me
cause i never took the time to see
how beautiful you can be.
if you wan to know my name
please, play the game.
if you dont, that's okay
you dont have to play.
if you choose yes
i'm bless
if you choose no
i'll go
i'll walk away in the mind of history
and my identity will always remain a mystery"

The third and last piece, was the directions to the "Game". It said to check yes to play the game or check no to end it. Then it said to guess five names. If one of the names is right, then the game will continue. If we guess wrong, then the game is over and the note giver will disappear like an enigma. He really did write "like an enigma". We tried to come up with names using process of deduction and finding clues within the text. I didn't think it could be anyone in our group. I had seen almost everyones hand writing and they did not match. Alex tried to put together some clues. We noticed he spelled wisely wrong so Alex looked up the wrong spelling on her phone. Apparently his spelling error had spelled some town in england. The likely hood that was true was small. We also noticed that when he wrote Monica's last name, he did something weird with the d. It was capitalized with a square and one of the corners circled. After thinking about it, we still couldn't come up with what it could mean, not anything logical anyways. We only had until the end of nutrition so Monica quickly wrote down five names and we left it by the tree like the note had told us to. Alex and I had Walked up the stairs and onto the balcony that overlooked our tree to see who would come to take the note. After waiting a while, we realized we would be late to class if we didn't leave. So we gave up and left to fourth period. I discussed the situation with Jessica who seemed half interested. After the bell rang for lunch, I quickly made sure I was in sight of the tree just incase anyone would try to take the note then. When I got there, the note was gone. And so all we could do was wait... And so ends the first day.


Wow I made this sound... weird... I actually wasn't involved with the situation too much until the very end. Also towards the end there will be another story that mixes with this one so stay tuned. :) byee

Yet another day :)

Not much happened today... but i'll write as much as I can.

I'll start with stuff from yesterday that I didn't feel like putting in the last post. So this person name Hiro Minamoto added me as a friend on facebook. I thought it might be Christian because the profile picture was the kanji symbol for love. He likes that symbol and he's pretty into japanese stuff, besides, Monica and Alex had already added him as a friend. Just to be safe though, I didn't add him. A little while later (like one or two days later) Christian got a facebook. So I thought "Oh so the other guy wasn't him. It's a good thing I didn't add him then." Then Monica started talking to me about him. She said that Christian had told her that he was an old friend of his. He said that he ran into him in promenade recently and that they agreed to get a facebook so they can keep in touch. He also said that Hiro was adding us as friends to get to know us. weird... This would be believable from anyone else. There are reasons why i can't trust him and I'll say those in another post (maybe the next one). Another weird thing about Hiro is that all of his friends are from palisades and they are only people Christian knows. He also has the same interests as Christian. So Hiro and Monica had a conversation. She showed it to me and, according to Hiro, he goes to a martial art training camp... Do those even exist? Monica also asked him questions to which it looked like he backed out of answering and when he did answer, it was weird. The "voice" also sounds like Christian. I can't describe how it's the same. It just is. When Christian tells me some story (whether it's the truth or not, I can't really tell because sometimes they don't make complete sense) there's something a little off. Sometimes I catch it, sometimes I don't. I feel bad for not trusting him but... :/. So Sid and Monica started questioning him, trying to corner him into telling the truth. I guess they're still going with that plan... I just planned to discuss it with Sid the next day...

So another event happened yesterday. This one is a lot happier ^0^. So you know how there are those statuses that say something like : if you like m status, I will post something I like about you on your wall. "Twin" posted one of those so I liked it. It took a while to get the courage to do that ><. So then after a while he posted something. It was a pretty long post ^.^. I'm not going to say what it said. You'll have to ask me personally cause i don't really want to post it here, and if you don't know me personally then why are you reading this O.o. So i showed it to some of my friends you thought it was really sweet :). I still don't think it meant to much though... But I'm happy ^0^.

So yeah... today. I talked about hiro with sid in english. He thinks it's Christian and I do too. He showed me a conversation he had with him and again, I saw the same things I noticed from Monica's conversation with him. It's not like there are holes in the story... well... there is the fact that Christian is always busy so he can never hang out. So why would he be at promenade. He doesn't even live near there. Anyways, like the other conversation, this one also had the same voice of Christian and hiro was also backing out of answering personal questions. They weren't that personal either, more like he was backing out of giving any information what so ever. So then "Twin" joined our conversation and looked at the conversation ( we were viewing this via cellphone). While looking at the cellphone, his face was close-ish to mine... not really but still ><. Anyways, he also thinks this guy is creepy. So then the rest of english we didn't talk much. Our teacher said that this was a serious work day and that we couldn't talk. Usually this rule doesn't stick but unfortunately, this time it did. After a while we started whispering though :). One funny thing that happened in that class, there was this one cushion, that whenever you got up from sitting on it, it would go mooo. seriously. This girl got up and we all heard moooo and were like O.o huh? Then someone else did it and we found out that the seat sounds like a cow when you get off of it :).So yeah that was english. So then "Twin" and I walked to our spot by the tree and Sid went with Monica somewhere. So then after we got to the tree, "twin" asked me to go to the textbook room with him. He said he didn't want to be alone with a weird person when he got back... It's not like I would have left. Besides, alex was there... he thinks she's weird though... she is weird. But in an awesome way which he is too stupid to see :). So then we walked to the textbook room which was moved to the library and returned his ap world book. ...yup thats about it... Then we walked back, ran into Laurie, and yeah... thats pretty much it. The rest of nutrition went by uneventfully. Lance came =.= ugh, but he didn't talk to me much.

Third period went as usual. We had a quiz which i might have missed one on. I had to translate this word into english, but there were two words. I guess it had two meanings. so it said: later, then. Then is entonces I think and later is depues, accent on the second e. so I didn't know which one it was so I chose despues... I hope I'm right. At least I can argue it if I get it wrong. So that was spanish. Then lunch..."Twin" wasn't there :(. Monica and Sid were though. I got to eat Monica's lunch :). Then Lance came over. He keeps trying to sit close to me. He doesn't get that I don't like him... So then the bell rang and I went with Sid and monica in the opposite direction of my class to avoid lance. Then i went to pe... not fun. I talked to Christian about Hiro. He seemed to be a little suspicious of me asking so much about him but I told him I just wanted to know because I didn't want some stranger to be adding me as a friend on facebook. Anyways, he seemed to give a lot of detail. Over explaining is something that can give away a lie. He seemed to really want me to believe him too. Mary also doesn't believe him. Then our teacher made us run the mile. :(. I finished just in time though. Seriously, i finished at like, the exact last second :). So then I went to the exercise room and did nothing. Then we went to the locker room and Jackie and Mary got on top of the lockers O.o. I decided not too... it's really dusty up there and I don't think teachers would be too happy if they found us up there. Then ms. Thompson came in and Mary and Jackie had to jump down quickly. ... The rest of pe was just walking around and doing nothing in the exercise room. I think I'm bringing my phone to pe next time... I find it more fun when I don;t talk to anybody... that sounds mean but... :/. Maybe I can text monica now that I have unlimited texting ;).

And for the last part of my day. Art. I had two projects due. I didn't do any of them. Neither did a lot of the class. Ms. Curren got mad... but then she left and we had a sub. So I fell asleep. :). Then I went home and now I am writing. so yeah. I'll try to post something soon. I'll try to write about the love note story and also about the scratches which kind of intertwine with the note story. they kind of have something to do with each other but not really, just that it's the same person in each and they happened around the same time... so yeah... byee ^.^

Sunday

So Sunday wasn't much more interesting than Saturday. I went to a museum for an art project. I have to write 3 pages on a painting... not fun :(. I only spent about 30 minutes there though... i think my mom wanted to leave more than I did... So yeah. I was also texting monica a lot. i almost used up all of my texts but now im on unlimited :). and that's about it... today was more interesting though so i'll about it in another post.